- Mon Oct 26, 2020 7:33:48 am
#52932
After a night's sleep, I do want to say that while I did write in my confessional the moment Angelina was removed, that Aaron/Nick/Tommy/Jack would all team up together to get rid of me, there was a lot of completely unnecessary lying to make me feel comfortable. That said, I also never trusted anyone fully except for Alison and Kara, and I was shocked that the four + Dean didn't try to make a move at the final 9. Never felt like I was in a good position which is why I am kind of confused why I was considered such a big threat. I think it comes down to Carl poisoning my name before the merge on his swapped tribe (for reasons I still don't entirely understand since they completely killed his game), but maybe I was missing something else. Either way, Kara is the only one I felt completely betrayed by. I also am curious to know how much she was involved in the planning of this, or if she just saw the writing on the wall and wanted to join the majority.
After I played the idol on Alison, I told Alison, Kara, and Angelina that my goal was to get us all to the final 4. This wasn't entirely true since I eventually wanted Angelina gone before then because I wasn't in her final 3, but I was under the impression that all we needed to do was get to the final 8 intact. Everyone else would have been making a huge mistake to allow a clear tight group to make up half of the game. When we got there, I was ecstatic for obvious reasons, and it definitely hurt to see Angelina leave in the way that they did. That being said, they could have all still been playing my exit the entire weekend. I really don't know, but Angelina and Alison were both heavily targeting Nick before she was kicked out of the game. Nick really outed himself as a slime ball for the 8th time when he whispered to me after Dean played the fake idol that Angelina had the real idol, something I had no idea about. Angelina lost a ton of trust in him, something I never really had to begin with in Nick. I honestly thought he proved himself to be untrustworthy for entirety of the game from the moment he was trying to accumulate coins in round 1 but that's a story for another day.
Anyways, both Kara and Alison separately came to me telling me that Angelina told them she wanted to go to the final 3 with Kara and Alison. Angelina also promised me final 4, and I fully believe that was her intention because she was open about pretty much everything. Because Kara and Alison both told me that she wanted me gone in 4th (and a number of things including working together night after night), I also fully believed that Kara and Alison wanted me in the final 3 with them. I was worried about Angelina's idol, and we were still trying to figure out a plan as to how to get rid of it on Sunday. Nick, who created a final 3 alliance with me and Tommy, was trying to create an elaborate plan where we give Angelina the majority of the votes while putting the rest of the votes on Aaron in case she does play the idol. I don't know if he was actually being honest with me, or if he was targeting me instead of Angelina, but I do know that my plan was to split the votes between Angelina and Nick, and if I knew for a fact that three or four of Angelina, Alison, or Kara were voting for Nick like was planned, then I would have told Angelina to play her idol before tribal council which would have resulted in Nick leaving next. Alison actually wanted the planned boot order to be Nick at final 8 then Angelina at final 7, but we hadn't fully planned this out yet. I was worried about giving Tommy/Aaron/Jack the opportunity to have a 3-3 split, so I feel like I would have pushed back against that. That said, I think Kara may been screwed the most in this with Angelina leaving if she was planning to stick with us to use Angelina's idol against someone, then she could have flipped to make a massive move on her own at the final 7 if she wanted. She also could have made the decision to stick with her alliance before. I really don't know what she was thinking anymore which is kind of sad since I trusted her almost fully until Tommy spilled that Nick had created an alliance with Kara and Tommy (same as the one he created with Tommy and me). I knew Kara was close with Nick from the original tribe, but I didn't realize how close. I also confronted Kara about this, and she denied it despite me going into detail about what Tommy told me (even said the name of the group chat that Tommy told me). Anyways, Tommy telling Alison and me that Kara, Nick, and him had an alliance was so unnecessary if he was lying to us the whole time since I was a dead man walking. I guess the point of it was to run salt in the wound? He completely pledged his loyalty to us by throwing Nick and Kara under the bus about an alliance he was in with them despite having no intention of working with us. To me that was pretty sloppy gameplay, although I felt the same way about Nick making multiple iterations of the same alliance. I told Alison I didn't really trust Tommy, but she seemed to believe what he was saying since it really didn't make sense for him to lie about it. Alison then took this information and tried to make a final 4 person alliance with Aaron, Tommy, and me. Since I trusted Aaron even less than Tommy, I thought this could be additional ammo to take me out, so I wasn't too happy about it, but under the logic that Nick and Kara were potentially trying to play against us, it was the only real option. I also think Aaron had been targeting me since the swap, so there was not really much I could do on that end. I would really like to know the timeline of how my boot came about if it was in the works the entire weekend, or if it only happened because of Angelina leaving. They could've all been planning my exit from the moment Dean left, but this is really a question solely for Kara since without her vote (and Angelina still in the game), they didn't have the numbers to get rid of me.
It's really funny to me how everything I said my pitch to Aaron/Dean/Carl after I idol'ed out Lauren turned out to be true. I told them that the two "sides" needed to work together in order to get rid of the people playing both sides, otherwise they would dictate the rest of the game and take control of it. That is exactly what happened, and this could have all been avoided had they not targeted me at the final 11. This is why I said Carl was the only reason that Carl left. Tommy and Nick were obviously not trustworthy nor reliable to have on anyone's side, and I would have been extremely happy to take away their power and get rid of them. That said, I was trying to make anything work to save myself, so when I found out from those exact same people that despite you guys guaranteeing for hours on end that Tommy was the one leaving, I knew from Nick that I was your target and had no other options to save myself but to vote for Carl. You all can say whatever you want about me, but the main reason Carl/Dan/Dean all ended up here in a row is because they all voted for me when they didn't have to. Because of that decision, Tommy and Nick have been able to maneuver themselves throughout the game, and they now seem to be in control. The reason I didn't target them after is because again, I only thought we needed to get to the final 8 with Angelina, Alison, and Kara in order to be in a position where the worst case scenario was us forcing a tie. Not 100% if that is accurate or not.
Going back slightly further to the original tribe since it seemed to have a huge impact on the rest of the game. I was in three group chats. Dan invited me to one with Dan/Carl/Nick, Kara invited me to one with Kara/Jessica/Nick, and Alison invited me to one with Jessica/Alison. The Kara and Alison ones happened on the same night (and I think a day before Dan's chat), and because I was in both with Jessica, it made me bond even more with her. I also eventually told Jessica and Alison about the idol I found thinking that they would keep it quiet and not tell anyone. Also, I lied about the timing of when I sent Jessica the idol. I actually sent it to her immediately after her tribe lost the post timing challenge. So yes, I considered Jessica by far my closest ally in this game (and when she left, she sent me a ton of coins which eventually bought us immunity in the final 14 challenge). That being said, I don't really understand why Carl lost all trust in me because of the Davie vote when I spent hours trying to tell everyone to vote for Christian using the logic that we don't want to murky the waters before a swap. In fact, the only reason I stopped pushing for it was because Carl gave up and messaged me that the vote was for Davie (which was a huge sign to me that he wasn't going to be willing to fight for his allies if they were in danger). I told Davie he was in trouble, and I found out I was the only one to do so which was insane to me. Never understood the idea to blindside people just for the sake of it. Anyways, I was not the one in power or the one who decided Davie should leave. What happened was in the Kara/Jessica/Nick/me group chat, we were all talking about how Christian would be the easiest vote, and Kara brought up that she thought Carl/Nick/Davie were all aligned. I have no idea if this was true or not, but I pushed back quite a bit saying that if we think they are aligned, why do we want to piss them off right before we go into a swap and might need them? But Kara and Christian made a deal of some sort, and she convinced Jessica and Alison and Angelina to all be on board since Christian would be a loyal vote to their side (which was also true). Nick told me that he was hesitant, but he didn't seem to me to want to put up much of a fight (I could be wrong on that point, we both did want Davie to stay at least). The moment Carl said Davie was the vote without even an argument against it was when I knew it was hopeless though. Anyways, Kara may not have been aligned with everyone on our original tribe, but she was the main proponent of Davie leaving. I thought it was a great gameplay move for her, especially since Carl somehow blamed me for it and not her at all. Oh, yeah. All while this was happening, Dan was trying to get rid of Alison over Christian which was also just as insane to me at the time and never happening. Our tribe was a ticking time bomb that would have exploded immediately had there not been a swap next.
I know this is a rambling mess. Anything that doesn't make sense, let me know, and I can clarify. I am sure I missed a ton of details along the way, but I tried to focus on what seems to be the main questions around here.
Will go into details tomorrow.
