- Sun Nov 01, 2020 8:32:50 am
#54703
Nick, it’s true that in the last week of this game, I pretty much played lock-step with Aaron. This was because I did feel a strong personal relationship with him and also because our vision for the end week was very similar. As I mentioned in my opening, I started as an outsider and the consequences of the swap meant, for as nice as my Poroto tribe was, I had my back against the wall until the merge. That’s the first time I truly felt like I had the chance to make a move for myself, and I flipped. You did too, and I had a feeling that you might based off the small chat we did have, and I knew then that my flip was really going to be even more horrendous if you did. We were flippers passing in the night. And you kept doing it, you’re right. At times it devastated me, but it was beautiful to watch! I’m going to talk a little more about playing for myself in my response to Carl.
Also, I did vote against Aaron! I threw a vote at him the night Dean went home. I knew that if Dean, my #1 ally went home, I was likely going to be targeted next by the girls. That vote was an attempt to show them that I wasn’t going after them in case I had to beg for my life.
Even when I agreed with Aaron, my strategic mind was constantly working. Before the F6 Tribal, I actually thought of a scenario that would have been absolutely perfect for Alison, Kara, and you to pull off. If you three had forced a tie with me, Aaron, and Tommy - and if that tie had gone to rocks, you and Kara would have been safe via immunity, Alison and Tommy would have been safe as a result of the deadlock, and only Aaron and I would draw rocks. It would have put me and Aaron in an excruciating position to either flip on Tommy or to draw rocks. I brought this to Aaron's attention and we agreed to force the tie, but flip on the revote to protect ourselves.
From here on out, treat this like a buffet - take what you want, leave the rest.
I’m sorry that you felt alone in this game. I really wish we would have talked more. Guess what? Fifteen years ago, when I was 18, I played these online Survivor games. (I have never felt so old in my life as I just did typing that sentence.) I actually started when I was just a bit younger. I was a closeted gay kid in a small town that wanted to win something because I felt like a loser. And for a while, it was the most freeing thing in the world. I kept playing as I started college, missed most of my orientation week, missed a day of classes because I was so tired staying up all night to win an immunity challenge. When I finally won my first game, I remember looking up to tell someone, and there was no one to tell. I hadn’t made any friends yet. And honest to god, I have not played a game like Stranded since then, until now.
Now, I’m sure that our life experiences are very different and you have your own reasons for playing a game like this. I’m sharing all this with you now because, I don’t know, it’s just, for me - the things you wanted, the connections, the respect for wearing your heart on your sleeve - I wanted those things too. And I never got them from these games, not in any meaningful way. I don’t mean for this to scare you off from these games - they can be so fun and you are so good at them, clearly. But because you remind me of myself a bit, I hope you don’t mind this old man rambling.
By the way, a few weeks later I joined an improv comedy club. Scariest thing I’ve ever done! Fifteen years later, they’re still my best friends. You’re young and you’ve got the world at your feet, Nick. When you’re done conquering virtual worlds, be sure to go make a splash in the real one too, because that’s where people are going to appreciate you and everything you bring to the table.